Let go

I am back.

Fri, 04 Jun 2004 03:41:02 GMT

So i haven't wrote in this for the longest time. We have a week left of school. And i am going to miss it. Some of the coolest kids in our class might not graduate this year. Sucks. Went and saw "The Day After Tomorrow" a few days ago. Not bad. I just got a high score in pinball...YES!

I hope grad. night is awsome. Should i pay the $50 to go? or should i just not pay and try getting on the buses? What can they do? We already graduated. kick me off? no. they wont even know. So i am going to just get on and hope no one finds out.

Our Prom is this Saturday and i just asked my girlfriend "formally" to Prom today. HA! I am so behind in all my classes. All the days i missed because of track is now kicking me in the ass. i have so much math, and what did i do today? skipped math, so i could make a sign for Grace.

Cant wait until Prom night!

I cant wait until Jackie comes back up and visits.

Fun...

Mon, 12 Apr 2004 04:12:52 GMT

While i was in Arizona i wish i could have hung out with Jackie and company more than i did. They all seemed really awsome.

But i was happy to get home. It was nice here so that was good. And i realized that i love this place. Arizona is awsome and everything, but i still love Washington.

Now the question of college comes up. And i would love to go to Arizona. But it also would be bad going here. I mean the only reason why i would go to Arizona is to play football because they dont have it here for Junior College. But sometimes i feel like the only reason why i want to play football is to make my parents proud. And i hate that. I just want to do something that they expect i wouldnt do. And they expect me to play football. and so if i dont that is just one huge bullet in the ass for them. I just feel like i have to do so much to make my parents happy. but i feel bad because i told them i wanted to go to Arizona to look at colleges and we spent a lot of money and now i am not to sure. they will be pissed if i tell them, so i am gonna wait.

school tomorrow...DAMIT!

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 08:39:42 GMT

Arizona here I come!!

Swell Times....

Fri, 02 Apr 2004 02:29:40 GMT

Today we had a track meet and my relay team had to get under 45 seconds to go to Pasco on two weeks. And below 45 seconds is damn good and we didnt think we could do it and we did! We broke the school record today and raped everyone. I did great in all my events.

Tomorrow= last day in Washington.
I leave for Arizona early early Saturday mourning. And we should get down there a whole day earlier!! I am so excited. So we will be there in the early evening on Sunday. Like around 6ish or so. Ahhhhh i cannot wait. I cannot wait to see what the place looks like(i totally forgot). And i cant wait to see Jackie and meet all her amigos.

I wont see Grace for two damn weeks. This sucks. But i am over it. I have AZ.

I love....George Bush.
I cannot stand....a certain someone.

My fellow Arizonians...it may be official

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 00:37:23 GMT

Today I called some of the community colleges in Arizona about football. An i believe i found one. They are highly interested in me and they need a kicker. So me and my dad are driving down this saturday. so i will be there Monday and probably for the week looking at colleges and talking to the coach. I would be going to Glendale Community College. Woot Woot! I am so excited. So when i go down there i think the coach wants to see me kick right then and there. So i am kinda nervous but i know i will do good.

I miss you Jackie!!!
I cannot wait to go down to Arizona, i am so so so excited.

Mon, 22 Mar 2004 05:06:06 GMT

I am so excited! I think i am going to Arizona for sure! Me and my dad talked about it today. But my mom is kidna scaring me. because she is all like we should go if your not serious about ASU. And i was like mom i am. and i was like i need to go anyway to see if i lik the campus and all that stuff. and yeah she said moe shit, but i was playing a video game so i wasnt really listening.

Cold Creek Manor licked ass. I thought it would be better.
So this past friday i was suppose to go see Dawn Of The Dead with the gang, or at least some of the gang. And i made plans and everything with times and what not. And who doesnt call me? Oh yeah thats right the gang. They went to the movie without me. I was pissed. Seriously you do not realize how many times my "friends" have stood me up.

I have learned a lot in the past few days. I was listening to this song and one of the lines was "Dont be reckless with other peoples heart and dont put up with those who are reckless with yours." Its such a good line. And i just thought about it and i was like word up to that. I have put up with so many people. And so many girls have cheated on me, and one in particular i kept on running back to over and over again. And she just plays it off like nothing ever happened and that she never did anything wrong but she did. And i am just not going to deal with her anymore. I cant stand her anyway, but i talk to her just to be nice. But from now on i dont think i am going to talk to her.

I miss Jackie Noel Bassett. After i go down there you need to come up yonder!

I hate it....

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 04:20:50 GMT

I hate everything.
I hate my fucking parents getting a divorce. Well i hate my dad because he did it. But i dont hate him i love him he is an awsome dad but fuck him. My parents pissed me off just a while ago and i was going to just say i was going shopping and leave and not come back. That would have pissed them off but they diseve that shit. Fuckers!
Sometimes i just want to do something that they dont approve of. i am not a goody goody but i do a lot to please people and please them. I am a good kid. i dont do stupid shit, i am a good student and i just do a lot to make them happy and be good. well i need to fucking forget that and do something. it has crossed my mind so much lately to just fucking quit track and other stuff. why am i doing track? i made the relay team. that is good. it proves once and for all i am the fastest whote kid in the school. dont think so? thats great but just look at the stats shit heads. so why quit track i am obviously good at it. or how about why did i join track? because i wanted to or because my dad wanted me too? i need to think about it. because i know i wanted to but my dad forced me to do somehing during the spring. why didnt i just say shut the fuck up and not do anything. no i should have.

I want to be in Arizona away from everything. The only thing that i like here is my girlfriend and friends. but i havent seen mch of my friends lately so Grace is what i have. and that is good. really really good. but i just want my parents to go away. my dad moves out in a few weeks. juts in time for spring break. what was i suppose to do on spring break? go to Arizona. with who? my dad. now what am i going to do? help him move? fuck that he can move his own shit. He doesnt realize what he has done do me. he always is on my ass about ASU. There isnt anything wrong with starting here and transfering. But he thinks i need to go there right away. how do i do that when i cant even visit the college and your asses cant fill out financial aid. financial aid changes now with him leaving. this is such a fucking great time to get a divorce and move out. oh hey whos birhday, the best day of my year, is coming up. oh yeah thats right mine. whos is a week after mine. oh yeah thats right my little brothers. who needs to go to football scholarship camps this year? thats right me. how the fuck do we do this when he has to pay child support and my mom needs to pay the house bills.

Dont fucking read this and say i need a job than, because i do fuck head. It is really really good money but buisness doesnt pick up until summer.

Sorry about all the cursing and how long this was. i just needed to say SHIT!

Baby You...Got What I Need...

Fri, 27 Feb 2004 04:25:54 GMT

I love the one hit wonders show on VH1.

It has been boring around here lately. My house is a very awkward place to be at right now. I havent been here much lately, i have to get away and not think to much about it. I go to Grace's and hang out with her family. I had to watch the O.C. last night with her, that was a mistake. lol. It was fun hanging out with her, but the show licks my ass.

I have been venting to Daniel a lot lately. He is an awsome friend. I need to hang out with him a lot more.

Tomorrow is friday thank god, and i am hanging out with Grace after school, and i dont know what we are gonna do, but hanging out with her is fun anyway.

All my friends went to go see that Passion Of Christ movie tonight, i wasnt invited HAHA. I dont care though.

So, Grace's family is getting a cow, and they are going to make it have babies, then they are going to eat it, and so on and so on. It is going to be awsome. I am trying to convince her mom to get an Emu, but it aint working. That would be cool, then we could ride it.

Sat, 21 Feb 2004 19:12:18 GMT

So today i think me and Grace are going to go down to 24th street in Portland and i am gonna show her all the shops and then go to an art gallery so i get my project done. it has been so nice here the past few days, i love it. it reminds me of summer. i love summer. i can't wait for summer.

My friends got pissed at me the other night, because i didnt want to go to a church retreat with them this weekend. i felt bad but they layed it on me in the last second and i cannot change pre-made plans. whenever my friends get mad, it is funny, i sit there and laugh at them because they are so gay. the fag and quere come out of their mouths every second. and i dont get pissed or anything i just sit there and thank god i am not dumb shits like them.

I am over it...

An Idea...

Fri, 20 Feb 2004 07:46:41 GMT

Ok so get this, the other day i had a dream and i wake up and i remember everything in my dream, and that always happens to me, and some people cannot remember their dreams for the life of them. well then i was thinking, why doesnt the government do a lot more research on the brain. because my idea, is for someone to come up with a device, like maybe a pill, that you take before you go to bed, and in this pill is information and you go to school IN YOUR SLEEP! and then when you wake up you remember everything, so it is like you already went to school, then the rest of the day is open. i am serious this could actually work. think of the benifits, there would be more free time. and you could possibly learn endlessly so maybe in the future, smart ass people will become even more smarter and we could find things out faster. like a cure for AIDS or genetal herpies. the possibilities......

MCS....

Fri, 20 Feb 2004 07:38:13 GMT

Someday I fear I will be rescued from the boredom line.

Today i did absolutely nothing. i never stepped outside once. I had no life today. i dont mind it though. I played Halo today, and this one damn level is pissing me off. i cant beat it. i hate Halo. actually i love it, but for now i hate it.

tomorrow i am finally, maybe, hanging out with Grace. I miss that girl. and then everyone is getting together and hanging out. should be fun.

so i was in my room today listening to music and just chillin with myself. having a little adam to adam convo. and i realized how much more of life we all have. we are all only 17 or 18 and thats a long time. for me, 17 years, damn i have been here a long time. and the life expectancy age is like in the high 70's or 80's i am not sure. but damn we are on this earth for a long time. lets say i live to be 80, that is 29,200 days and so far i have lived...2,737. there is so much to do in life. and i just hope i can retire early and have fun.

I want my MTV...

Wed, 18 Feb 2004 23:48:25 GMT

Ahhh break is so nice. no school at all this week, oh how life is swell.

Yesterday, the gang went over to Tylers and hung out and then we went to Deidras and hung out there. My girlfriends house got egged last night, and she called me this mourning and she thought it was me and my friends. wtf.

job searching is so gay. i look for a job all the time and i get interviews and everything and i never get a job. i give up. god will give me one when its time. lol. college is also a hastle. god damn college. i always take the easy way out of things. and i want to go to AZ for college that is my dream, but i know i am just going to take the easy way out and stay here. i dont want to do that, but its goign to happen.

my g/f got me the motion city CD the other day. i lvoe that cd. i had on of them, but it was burned songs and they sounded like shit. and some were gay. but damn the CD is good.

what to do tonight...

Mon, 16 Feb 2004 08:08:41 GMT

I seriously miss Grace so damn much, i am hanging out with her tomorrow. but not until like 6 and that is late, i need to see her sooner.

tonight was so awsome my friend had this video scavanger hunt thing, it was so awsome. to much fun. liong king, good times.

I CANT WAIT TILL TOMORROW!!

Fri, 13 Feb 2004 03:05:24 GMT

Today was great. the weather was nice again. and it was warm, well 55 degrees. thats warm here. my parents left for the weekend. they left me $95 for 3 days. i think tomorrow i am going to have everyone over. it will be good times.

after school today, retook spanish test i failed. grace and I hung out at my house. then went to my little bro's basketball game. took grace home and me and my bro got Taco Bell, yumm. my sister is coming over tonight, i miss having her around. but it is also cool not having her around. i cannot wait until summer. it is going to be an awsome summer.

i am going to miss Grace this weekend...

Lately....

Thu, 12 Feb 2004 04:13:24 GMT

I really really like Grace. I dunno there is just so much that makes me happy when i am hanging out with her. she is so great! and i am so happy and so lucky to have a girl like her.

the other day we had announcements for the court for our valentines day formal dance. and i made it. i am happy but also kinda bummed, i wanted to make prom court, but most of all, my girlfriend isnt going to be here on valentines day, so i have to go alone. i am over it though. i am only going to go for like coronation and then the group picture and then i am leaving.

I have an F in spanish. well it was an F on my progress report, now it is a C.

My mom tried to catch me looking at porn, haha it was funny.
but i am leaving so i will talk about that later.

Thu, 05 Feb 2004 04:42:04 GMT

Today was good. I tried convincing my Spanish teacher to give me a B just so i could have a 3.0 on my progress report so i can save $100. but i dont think it worked.

today after school i hung out with my wonderful girlfriend, which was fun, like always. i want to take her somewhere this weekend since she wont be here next weekend for V-Day. but where to take her?

HI JACKIE!

Relief...

Tue, 03 Feb 2004 00:55:16 GMT

So today, i passed on the guitar. i know it is sad. Camm has it now. i realized i couldnt make the moeny up all that easily. i have so much to do that involves money and i cant spend it on a guitar right now. but i will still play tylers and stuff. i am going to miss the little bastard.

But this means i dont have to save money and that means i can go to the MAE concert.(if it isnt already sold out)

The super bowl was awsome! i called it too. i told the guys before the game even started that i hada dream and it came down to a field goal. i am a genious.

Annie Baker is finally talking to me. I am happy.
I havent talked to Jackie lately. I am sad.

My girlfriend isnt going to be here Valentines Day. I am sad again. Valentines Day kicks my ass. Last year i got dumped on Valentines Day and this year my g/f isnt even going to be in town.

I want to go see a concert

Fri, 30 Jan 2004 03:49:46 GMT

I AM SO HAPPY I HAVE AN AWSOME GIRLFRIEND. Me and her hung out yesterday and i was just like wow! i am so glad that i have her. she is so awsome. and i hope we stay together for a long time. but i dunno what to do, if i end up loving her and i have to go to college. that even if i still go away. i still want to, dont get me wrong. Arizona is still my first choice and always will be, but it is hard. and everything has to work out for me to be able to move down there. and that is like 54534 things.

So this week i have started the Adam Hergert fund. haha. i am going to make flyers and post them around school. i am going to start a locker cleaning buisness. it is going to be my way of making money so i can repay Adam S. for the guitar. this week i made like $15. thats good. kinda.

i am so glad the weekend is coming. tomorrow i am gonna go jam with the guys. i still suck, but i am getting so much better.

people have been telling me lately that i should grow out my hair. should i? shouldnt i? no clue. i dont think i could pull it off.

GRACE IS THE BEST!!

Guitar Center

Mon, 26 Jan 2004 02:28:48 GMT

Today, me, Tyler, and Adam S. went down to clackamas and went to the guitar center. and we baught guitars. actually Adam S. did. he spent $480 that crazy bastard. and he baught me a guitar, but i have to pay him back in payments. which i will do. now i need to go get a job. anyway, we went back to tylers to play them and we thought he would have gotten in big trouble for spending his money on a guitar, but he didnt really so that was good. my parents think it is Adams and i am borrowing it. but in reality it still is his, so i wasnt lying to my parents. damn i am smart. i dont want school tomorrow. i got no sleep this weekend. i am so tired. i have to start getting serious about track. tomorrow is when i start working out and preparing myself.

college is a whole lotta hard decisions, it is driving me crazy.

dont think i can go to the Mae concert anymore. damit. why you ask? because i have to repay Adam $170 bucks for the stuff he baught me.

Sat, 24 Jan 2004 16:52:33 GMT

Yesterday, after school, me, Grace, Tyler and Deidra went to some guitar shops. we wanted go to the really big one in clackamas, but it was too far. then went back to tylers and played some guitar and hung out, then me and Grace went to my house, then wendys. then back to my house and hung out, watched Forrest Gump, i love that movie.

earlier this week it was really sunny for about two days and it puts everyone around here in such a good mood. And it is a lot funner to do stuff and now it is raining like always and i just hate it. washington blows ass.

Arizona

Wed, 21 Jan 2004 05:35:15 GMT

So i have made the decision and i do not think i am going to go to Arizona in February. I still dont know yet. Dont worry if i dont go in february i am definitally going in April. It is either one or the other. And if i go in April that means my family and i have more time to save money. Also our 2nd trimester will have just gotten over the week before so that means i dont hae to worry about homework or anything like that. So April is the best time for me to go, but i cannot wait that long.

Just got home from basketball, we won. Nick flipped out and walked off the court. And his parents said that he is going to walk home, to get his temper down. HAHA. Nick=fag. but he is a good guy.

Showed my parents my SAT score the other day. lol. had it for a good 3 weeks and i just showed them. they didnt care. i think mainly because my girlfriend was over when they saw it, but they still havent said anything.

I need to go see a concert. Havent been to one in a long time. Me and Tyler are going to the Mae concert next month.

Wed, 21 Jan 2004 02:56:46 GMT

Weekend was good. Monday went to Tylers and played some more guitar. i am getting alright. i still suck, but i am getting it down. i dont like bass though, but it is a step in the right direcion. a friend is going to sell his, maybe, he has two so i told him that i was interested in buying one. its an electric, just what i wanted! if i got it, oh man, that would make my life so much better.
my friend, got a job at the Subway i applied at, she had an interview right after me, and i knew she was going to get it. Why you ask? because she has tits and she does pot. thats why. seriously, all my pot head friends have jobs. fuckers.

I want to go snowboarding this Friday, so badly. Ahhh.

Off to the basketbal game...

Mon, 19 Jan 2004 17:43:53 GMT

Last night the gang went over to Tylers like usual. I am learning to play thye guitar. I want to quit already, it is way hard, but i never give up and i am not going to stop here. And besides guys who play guitars are hot, right girls? And then that measn if i learn to play than i will be on the hottness scale from 1 to 10. And i will be at 1, so at least i will be on the scale. I think i am gonna take Grace over there today and i am going to practice some more. I might buy the bass from him, but Adam S. might beat me to it. Because he has more money than me, a lot more. All because i didnt get hired at Subway, fuckers. I am over it though, just i wont go to Subway ever again. lol joking. i love subway, more than sex. time to go apply at the other one. someone should just GIVE me a jo, so i dont have to look. fuck i hate this. Anyway...Later.

Subway is good.

Fri, 16 Jan 2004 04:06:13 GMT

School was fine, like usual. Went to Subway for lunch, i love that place. Saw Brison, good guy. I miss hanging out with him. My CWP teacher is a stupid bitch. i cannot stand her. she is so....dfkjgdfjkgndfjkgndfgjkf. Today she made two kids stand up becuase they put their hands on their face. seriously. they werent sleeping or anything they just put their hand on their cheek and she was like YOU STAND UP NOW, YOU CANNOT DO THAT IN MY CLASS. and the kids were like wtf mate? so i put my hands on my cheeks to see if she would say that to me, because if she did....oooooo....I would just tell her "no thanks im fine" seriosuly i am not trying to act all tough, but what the hell can she do? go to the principal and say i had my hand on my face? no he cannot. but she never said anything. oh and some kid was "slouching" in his chair so she got pissed. so i slouched. and she did nothing. DAMIT!

After school. people came over. went to Krispe Kreme's and got 24 donuts. so good. then we played wiffle ball in my backyard, it was fun. Had an interview, went well. Let's hope i get this job.

And if i go to Arizona this break, it is a lot earlier than i expected. I thought it was the last week of February, yeah no it is the second week. so that means only one more month.

I miss Grace...

Thu, 15 Jan 2004 04:49:17 GMT

School was good, like usual. I am ranked number two in my CWP class, they are all stoners and stuff though. my class has three B's, three D's and the rest are F's haha our class is so stupid. After school, hung out with Grace...so fun. We have so much fun together. She is so awsome to hang out with and just be stupid around, i love it.

Tomorrow is my interview. Oh man i need, and WANT this job. working at Subway would be so fun. And i think i have a pretty descent chance at getting the job. he is only interviewing like 6 people. at least tomorrow he is. and tomorrow is the first day he is interviewing and he called me, that has to be a good sign. and yeah i just have a good feeling.

Jackie, love the hair!

Annie, still not talking to you, whats the deal? lol j/k